Colorectal cancer / caregiver | Cancer Survivors Network

Hi everyone,

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I have been reading a lot here and would very much like to post here now myself. would normally have to post in the caregiver threads but are afraid to do so because I don't want the posts to be found on search engines.?

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my boyfriend has colorectal cancer stage IV with mets to the liver at initial diagnosis. He was diagnosed a couple of years before we got together and for a long time refrained from a relationship because he did not want to pull me into it. In the course of his treatments, the mets on the liver shrunk and he has had numerous (difficult) surgeries to remove them and also ablation for little lesions that reappeared. He has kept working full-time all along and has been incredibly strong, Never burdening me with anything. I was always full of hope after a lot of initial thinking about it and the situation before we decided on having a relationship, Did my best to find out about nutrition, treatments, was asking doctors about the possibility of living donation of the liver. We talked a lot about marriage and children if things clear up. Now we just found out that there are a few small mets in the lung, both lobes. His doctors want to resect them as soon as possible.?

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I am hoping to get back on track, but have troubles coping with fear with respect to my own future, how I envisage it and sadness. It is so hard for me right now to care and think about anything else, work on my career or even just hang out with friends or family. but I know I owe him exactly that. I need to be strong, especially because he already feels guilty. And i dont know how to give him strength right now. I used to push him a lot into exercise, nutrition, spending as much time as we could doing wonderful things - something I did much more after meeting him. he brings so much to my life - yes, pain, but love and someone I can love, strength and something so real it is hard to describe. I have been the happiest ever since we are a couple. And I don't want to look into his eyes right now And be sad.?

Thank you for "listening" and all the best for you!

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Source: http://csn.cancer.org/node/257968

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